the world of myriad blahs and drats...

a memorable pool event....

2005-05-28T00:57:00.000+08:00

it's nice to be infront of the computer again..after a 3-day off... shocking events(ofcourse!!) occured again... and i say...SHOCKING! here's how all the drama happened... last last last night, my so-called bruce lee brother texted us if we wanted to go for a swim (for the last time this summer!!) and we could stay at his humble/ "joe's apartment" style aboad for 3 days...eh ala siyang cable dun... waaaah... hinde ko tuloy na panuod ung finals ng contender!! until now wala akong idea kung sino ang nanalo!! si latin snake(mah idol) mora ba?! o si nice guy peter manfredooo?! wada pak.. and i missed another episode of csi:lv..drat! pero okay lng kasi me replay nmn...(sunday 11am and 12nn NOTE: DO NOT FORGET IT RETCHU!!)well, at the first night, i kept on thinking about how sid and grover are doing back here all alone by themselves with cruella de ville.. ay, exciting rin pala later dat day! kasi pinaliguan namen si sid at si grover.. and guess what??? kadurrrdurrr si sid! as in o may oahd, great balls of fire ang epek..i..yeah me..i discovered that sid has a terrible case of tick-iasis and flee-syndrome.. kadiriiiiiiii talaga.. pag tingin ko sa ilalim ng tenga niya..(note! i almost puked)..tatlong malalaking ticks...sing laki ng isang coffee bean ang bumulaga sa aking face!! haha..shackers!! waaah.. naalala ko ung itsura! kadiriii, eeww...hahahha.. magkadikit pa ung 3!! and kulay green na sila... i immediately removed the buggers off then watched them.....haha.. for the first 10 seconds, i had this look on my face that could destroy someone's day because of great disgust.. then i figured what the heck, i'll just kill them.. without cons, i squished them to death, and unsurprisingly one tablespoon of blood came bursting out after every kill... shaks.. i killed, like 2 dozen of them..both the younglings and the coffee bean ones.. yaaaak.. back on the 3 day-off.. on the 2nd day, wala lng. nanuod kami ng finding nemo ng ate ko at nuong gabi dawn of the dead.. i hate apocalyptical movies..especially ones that involve zombies.. nagkachildhood trauma kasi ako because of the movie,, "The Night of The Living Dead" i watched that when i was like 5 or 6.. ha! banas.. nagkatrauma tuloy ako.. eh si pipay, my other "lost" brother, ay addict pa sa resident evil... and i always watch him when he plays it, naging taga-memorize pa ako kung where's that and this at kung nan jan na ba si nemesis at ang tyrant.. dat's why memorize ko na resident 1 hanggang outbreak.. haha..(naalala ko pa nga nun ung kuya ko si jill valentine at ako si leo kasi crush ko, sa 2) well, im still traumatized..tpos nga nanuod pa kami ng dawn of the dead pero mejo corny ang storya pero pasado na sa aking fear-shock indicator ung make-up and the gulatan..nyahahaha.. mas masaya parin ang shaun of the dead.. anyways, nyt swimming pala kami...nagswimming na kami ng mga 10..nag show down ang aking mga siblings! ang aking kuya ay ininggit ako sa "360 dive" niya.. if only i could do the 360.. what i do best is just hold my breath while swimming end to end.. ayun lng.. not vertically but horizontally.. tapos ang saya kasi nag karoon kami ng mini race kaming tatlo..wuhoo.. bonding time.. pero my sumaling isang kabarkada ng aking kuya.epal, joke...swimming to the end without breathing ang race, kung hinde sumali ung isang kabarkada ng kuya ko nanalo sana ako.. haaay.. atleast i have beaten my brother and sister..haha!! victory! well, here is the memorable pool event..nakakashock tlaga! we're just walking around the pool, when i saw some floating bug, i went to see what it is, and i felt an urge to help it so i called my sister so we could help the "it". eh hirap kaming hawakan sha, so what we did was we tried to wave the insect out of the pool which is still hard to do, and we looked stupid helping the poor thing then the unexpected happens, my fear came haunting me even in the pool, out of nowhere a frog jump in front of us NOTE: galing siya sa pool... and i screamed like hell.. niyakap ko kaagad ang kapatid ko at nag swimming ng grabe basta't makaalis lng sa pool... kadiriii.. MAY PALAKA SA POOL!!! o may god... I HATE FROGS...ipis na lng wag lng palaka...waaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! that's the most haunting experience i ever had inside a pool.. *sob*...

there's nothing you and i won't do.........

new blogskins after 10 millenia..

2005-05-25T01:56:00.000+08:00

wooow! super tagal ko ng hinde nag blog...haaay.. well atleast im back!! wuhoo.. super busy these days..busy o tamad lng akong mag net o dahil alang net...(later on that) anyways.. a lot of things happened..obviously, kasi ngaun na lng ako ulet nagblog in.. meaning super haba nnmn......golly! first of all badtrip"ness" came along with badluck.. nawalan kami ng telephone line... for cryin out loud!! that is why i am so freakin bored here without the telephone and THE INTERNET.. shecks.. why?? ....with only me and my sister(have i mention that my sister is semi amnesic most of the times?!?) trying to survive here and we're getting a little bit fussed up.. hmm....we didnt see the phone bill came, nagtago siya sa men, ayaw niyang magpapunit duon sa cashier.. then this month's bill came up and..taaaadaaaa! the notice of disconnection,, nakita pa nmn ung notice of disconnection on the due date..hayayaaay. good thing we paid it today!! yipeee! internetting here i come! badtrip"ness" is due to my lovin' granma again.. haaay nakU!!! when will she get over the SUPERIORITY THING?!?!? she hates maids. para siyang si CRUELLA DE VILLE sa 101 dalmatians..ung mga maids ung mga dalmatians..gusto ni CRUELLA perfect ung balat ng aso, at si LOLA nmn gusto niya perfect lahat ng gagawin ni ate napapansin niya talaga lahat..nagiging idol ko na nga siya dahil dun e, galing... it's too MUCH to mention... nababadtrip lng ako lalo.. and i hate it. who doesnt? on the other side of my world, which is our menagerie...sid, the cute adorable but irritating dog, is still surviving with grover, the powerful one.. ron, the girl cat with a boy name, is surviving with sid and grover, special thanks to the swing outside.. she(ron) stays on top of the swing so that THE DOGS couldn't reach and eat and then play(when she is dead) her.. well, toyang is still surviving!!! yey!! here's how he survived d wrath of d dogs.....*sound effects*

One sunny day, toyang is happily enjoying all by himself on top of the tree next to the swing where his mother kept on miaowing for food, but suddenly hell breaks loose and he accidentally fell from the 6 feet tall tree to our neighbors yard.. Now after some minor injuries toyang is still there and couldn't manage to jumped and get back into our place..

pero ang laki na ni toyang ngaun.. sing laki na ng mga gremlins..and i figured out a way on how to feed him without disturbing our neighbor..becoz he is gettin kinda thin.. every time i feed ron on top of the swing (nilagyan ko na rin ng water bowl si ron sa taas ng swing for safety purposes ibig sabihn para nde na siya bumaba sa swing) i also feed toyang............when the coast is clear i step to something high enough, like the leverage on the swing, so that i could see and give him some food...ang kyutkyut na niya!! kamukha na nia si............. waaahaha..

anyways...some good news came this week..and it is really GREAT news... someone......*hmmm?!?!* just made the "most stupidest" mistake of her life.. how could she 'back out' from him?! whada.. (well, that's what i think she did...) it's the greatest OMG event this week...rough. it's crazy even thinking of doing that to mr. g.. now i really hate her.. ang sama sama niya.. tsk tsk.. if i was her,, sigh.. i would go back and never leave..... never.....never ever.

another good news...a new cam phone is up my grabs again, and i really really hope that it won't be stolen again because if it does, i'll literally run for my life to catch and beat the stupid guy who tried to take my love away from me... even if it takes a matter of life and death... but i'd rather be wishing and hoping that it'll just be here in my hands forever...

im getting insomniac again... why?!!? hnde na ako tatangkad... need to drink milk... moreee!! wait....wait.... i need a moment of silence for the lost of dallas mavericks against the phoenix suns... ...*silence* ...especially for dirk nowitzki for being beaten by PHX, steve nash's team(my sister's look-a-like), it should've hurt...i also want this moment of silence to go off to the phoenix suns, which i prefer rather than the spurs, after losing to san antonio on game 1.. and also for guidance to sergio mora and peter manfredo jr...plz. guide sergio mora more.. but i really think that peter is gonna win the final fight.. anyways may the force be with them... ***SILENCE***

pretend that you love me...................

the contender....the playoffs....

2005-05-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

thank lord for TV.... sheks. without the screen i'd probably melt in seconds. i love this game.. another reason for having a thanksgiving party is the one, the only, NBA PLAYOFFS... yeah. i can give 1000 reasons why. there's dirk, the phoenix suns, the "defense! defense!", shaq, ginobili, not to mention mr. assist- steve nash(who by the way has the same hair as my sister's..)..heck there's so much to say.. atleast im not that super bored stiff here.. but having to sit all day long plus straining your eyes plus eating and eating while watching isn't very healthy... drat! now 3 inches became a part of me...being on 25 now im on 28.. i am so fat. obese!obese!(my conscience keeps on shouting at me) well, now i am planning to play some badminton, sepak, basketball or swimming or just play with the DOGS every 4 or 5 pm to help me get rid of some unwanted waistlines.. but the "buts" keep on coming.... when the sporty duday runs, i want too scream, OMG! it's sweat! sweaaaat!!!!!! it's like having green slime all over you and with that i can't help to take some bath after anything i do.. ang init!!!!!!!! great balls of fire tlaga. badthing is our water bill got higher than ever..1800!!! puchaness. hayayay! another thing that's not working for me is the swarm of mosquitos drinking a lot of me, and it's so irritating when they come at night!!! the time for peace!! but oh no no no! not for the stalky mosquitos.. and it makes me so happy when i kill them..it's like you've won a free trip to "the spa".....hmm.. good things this summer?? well.. i've got some time to think what happened the past schoolyear...and it occured to me that it's not that surprising and disappointing after all.. it gave me lots of lessons... well, a part of me really can't accept HIM..(yes, the three letter name) how could i?! regrets. regrets. he is very far from...elsa the dog..haha.. never mind. another thing is that i realize how can i be so stupid... why did i kept on writing things about the past here in my blog when there is too much to say about anything else.. i kept on writing on a "specific" guy, honestly, when i can speak of anything else...nakakaasar.. it made me look like im a typical 14-year old girl who doesn't realize there's many things in life..(in my opinion) well, this season i am very much(haha) looking forward to saving some time to have some philosophy in life, think about what's going on..and not think much of me, myself and i. sana magampanan ko toh. good things?? what else... well, good thing is jostein gaarder is here too help me with the philo stuff. sigh. things have overcome me now.. after losing for another time.. i think every summer changes occurs...many things change during summer... the question is why? is it because of the "i miss you" parts... for me..,,maybe. every now and then i get lonely....the days of staying late at night because you got home at 8 and you suddenly realize that you have a very long test on bio the next day..or the days of cramming with friends specially in geom courtesy of winking jackie chan..waiting for kuya blacky to open the gate so you could go with your friends, ride the tricycle and eat french fries for only seven pesos plus a hotdog and cheese sandwich for only 13 pesos while sitting at monoblocs...or waiting for your mom to wake you up and say, "anak magfofontana tayo or lets go somewhere colder than here" instead of your EVER-so-IRRITATING grandma say that to you.. i need time to work a little bit faster to help cease this loneliness.. grrr..the dogs are barking again...GROOOOVER, SIIIIIIIIIIIIIID!! QUIET.. son of a gun.. i hate cat dog fights. i miss toyang..

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY.....:)

it's gettin hot in herre?

2005-04-28T21:21:00.002+08:00

oh drat!...i feel so hot today!!!haha...hinde, i mean...... golly wow...ang init!!!!! this is it! "THE summer." i wonder if ICE MAN would melt? pero kahit na...sana ako na lng ang maging si ICE WOMAN... sheks.. it is kaduper hot in herre.. pero why on earth during this heat stroke, ay nagkaroon ako ng ubo't mega-sipon....*ubo*ubo* kakabanas ang hirap tuloy mag-swimming tapos ang init pa...feeling ko bawat ahon ko sa tubig para makahinga ay may tumutulo ng.....just use your imagination.. haha. ang tagal na rin pala since huli akong nagblog-in.. nakalimutan ko na tuloy i-share ung amazing story ni Micah.. well, next time na lng...ehehehehe... isa pa pang bagay na nakakadagdag sa init ng panahon ay ang BORING fever. napapadpad tuloy ako sa kadulo-duluhan ng quezon city... my brother's humble aboad. sheks. humble ba rapat or something a little bit different......hmmm?oh well.... atleast doon..malapit lng ang court at nasa kanya rin ang hindi ko matapos-tapos na grandtheft..kasi naman si cj eh..ala ng pera.. haaay...T-T-F-N!!

miss na miss ko na nga pala si.....*beeeep*.....wakkokokokokokok; ang pusakals; ang malditazzz; si meng; at ang curie dos!!!......

that's not what i want baby it's you!!!!

2005-04-16T23:03:00.001+08:00

shakss...nakakatuwaaaa!! haha... galing. (micah i adore you...) haha... gusto kong ipakita sa lahat ng tao un with some changes with the names.. haha. para ung writing career ni micah mag-kick off na.. haha.. lalagay ko dun... Micah- writer ng movies tulad ng "5o first dates, music in another room, sleepy hollow, sassy girl, windstruck, etc! etc!" wuhoo..pero eto ako napaka tear-jearky..naiyak sa isang storyang nagawa mo..pero its tears of joy! wahahhaa.. haaaay... what would you do if the unexpected happened?? what would you do? what would you do when the one you almost died for(exaggeration) ay isa lng alipin-ng-kaba at isang hamak na biktima ng katorpehan lamang?? at sa isang araw giniwa ka niyang pinakamasayang tao sa mundo kahit mawalan na siya ng dignidad at mabingi na lahat ng tao sa pagkanta nia ng baby all i want is you na inaalay nia ng buong puso para sa iyo. ano kaya gagawin mo?? haaay... hanggang tanong lng.. haha..

*drums*
"I, know all the games you play, and I'm gonna find a way to let you know that, you'll be mine someday!!!! 'cause we, could be happy can't you see, if you'd only let me be the one to hold you, and keep you here with me!!! 'cause I try and try to forget you girl(boy!!), but it's just so hard to do, every time you do that thing you do"...............
"'cause we, could be happy can't you see, if you'd only let me be the one to hold you, and keep you here with me... cause it hurts me so just to see you go, around with someone new!!! and if I know you you're doin' that thing, every day just doin' that thing, i can't take you doing that thing you do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

waha. sana tuloy tuloy na ang saya! :) kung napaka nonsense ng blog ko ngaun...post ko ang napakahiwatig na storya....na gawa ni MABL!! wahaha... tuwang tuwa natalaga ako.

maroons....

2005-04-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

today is a wednesday... kaya... i am a happy happy girl today!! wuhooo.. parteeeey!!!!

i am again stressful this day...how can someone be not stressed when your pretty-li'l-me classmate is dancing her butt out while we almost became bestfriends with the sun and our teachers... and because of her selfishness, curie perished again... well, it's her last wrath.. mawala na sana siya sa paniningin namen for the rest of the fun fun summer.... well on the other hand...masaya.... ngaung araw na ito at napadpad ang tatlong magkakaibigan sa "laguna de diliman".....habang papunta... mapapawaw ka na talaga dahil sa super gwapo ng kasabay mo e.... haha.."nevermind"...pero nakakaclear ng ulo, nakakasooth ang hangin at maiisip mo lahat ng magaganda sa buhay ng sila'y naupo run... lalo na sa buhay ng tatlong dalagitang naroroon.. hinde lamang nila sadya ang magrelax at magexplore ngunit sadya rin nila ang pagkakaroon ng piece of mind at nararapat na paliwanag sa mga nangyayari sa kanikanilang buhay... sila'y naupo sa isang pula at mainit na upuan at nag muni-muni habang mga kotse't tao'y ay nagsisipag tinginan sa kagandahan ng mga dilag na iyon(wahahaha. aja!) sila'y nagusap-usap ukol sa mga mangyayari sa kani-kanilang buhay matapos ang ika-18 ng abril... pero ang isa nman'y masaya ngaun dahil 2 bagay ang nagpaalala sa kanyang ...basta.. at ngaun siya ay tuwang-tuwa kahit na sa mga maliliit at walang ka anuanumang alaala... bilib nga ako sa dalagitang iyon sapagkat nakaya niyang mapanatili ang ...basta.. kahit sa paraang ganunganun lamang.. wada?? ang labo...kasi parang pag ang sayasaya mo wala kang pakielam sa mga bagay sa paligid mo pero pag saksakan ka ng kalungkutan lahat ng kagandahan sa paligidligid ay napaka halaga sayo.... haaay... tuloy ala akong masabi...nawawalan ng sense dahil nga MASAYA AKO! ayun na tlaga un.... alam ko un lng ang may sense sa araw na ito...ang saya. hehe..

i need to render...

2005-04-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

haha. i kept the promise. hehe. wala na akong masasabi....nakakawalang gana... haaay....napakababaw.. nag-gain nnmn ako ng 4 lbs. snaps for retchu....yey. :

last message received on.......

2005-04-11T20:07:00.000+08:00

4/11/05 7:41 pm.... waw.. coincidence? well maybe....pero ang galing! seven at forty one!!! haha. :) other's favourite numbers... shucks. parang ang saya...pero ung sayang un...di maglalast ng isang oras... pero ung memory.......remains forever..nyahaha.. bat ba laging tipid? sabagay...baka si "she-who-must-not-be-named" ay namimiss na siya... kung ako rin nmn un no... hinde hamak na 10 mins palang kaming hinde nagkakausap...hiwalayan na..exagerration.... pero "it" didn't sounded like the one.. parang naging iba si*toot*.. dahil nnmn kay you-know-who siguro.... nabago niya ang iisang taong...aun. wenk. haaaaaaay... ang saya ko na nung narinig ko ung tunog na *riiing* den pm e... ang saya tlaga....moment of the week to!!! yey! pero nung sa kalagitnaan....naisip ko... wala lng.. aun..hi and hellos...blahblah..den gtg... den...gone for another decade nnmn... naisip ko minsan ang tao palang nagpapasaya sa yo ay pedeng magpalungkot sayo at the same time.. ang hirap pala ng pinasok ko no... matagal na pala toh, bat ngaun ko lng naisip na mahirap pala.... "is there anything i can do to make myself enlightened?" haay... ang Xayang ang lungkot... mixed emotions... see you soon... haaay.. see you soon tlaga.... atleast.... thank the Lord! salamat Po! may energy na ako ulet... at ang tawag sa energing un ay.....Xermenergy...(sheks, i am so weird!) hulaan nio na lng kung bakit... hehe... blog in ulet ako mamayang 10... i pramis... nuod lng ako ulet ng darna.... :( sigee... paalam...werner..

bugger....

2005-04-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

people seem to show off their bug side of life every now and then.. especially for a certain someone who really really, show off HIS "bugger" side when you least expect it..

grrr.
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buti na lng wala ako sa queen of taray mode kagabi kung hinde.... deadbol ang isang taong walang wala lng. nakakaawang isipin na buti't ay natext ko pa un o kea nachat...:) pero kung iisipin rin wala nmng masama eh, wala namang dapat kaawaan... kung sabagay, memories are treasures to keep naman... may mga memories nmng hinde nakakahiyang alalahanin.. yak. panu ko nasasabi ang mga bagay na toh. i am so contradicting.. wakekekkk. sa totoo lang ayaw ko na sanang kausapin pa at kung anu pa mang means of blah blah.. it irritates me afterwards. pero baket pag kausap ko nmn ok lng..pero pag iniisip ko na ung mga napagusapan, it sends shiver down my spine ang epek.nyek. haay....kasi nmn... ang dami ring ka-feelingan ng taong un. i just can't explain how he does that..how he could translate simple words to make him feel he's the most lovable man in the whole wide world... researching about this could take about 10 years to complete... unbelievable kasi maxado. kea nga dapat talagang isipin mo ang mga sasabihin mo para aun walang ka-feelingan.. sana magbago siya. para makahanap tlaga siya ng magmamahal sa kanya ng tunay at walang hanggan... kelan kaya un?? waha..
eh ako kea kelan ako matututo muli?? kung kelan, hinde ko alam...hinde rin ako makakaasa sa tadhana, mejo palpak kasi siya minsan e, sa oras na lng...time will tell kuno. haaaaay... pero bago yun kelangang mabura ang ilang memorya ko kasama siya na lalong dumadagdag sa pagbagal ng pihit ng oras ko at sa kakahanap ng bagong..................alagang pusa? pwede rin.

"huwag kang matakot na mag-mukhang tanga.....kasama mo nmn ako!! aaaaaaaah aaaaahhhhhhhh!"

lalalalaallaalallalala.........

baket....o baket ba?!!??! sheks.

2005-04-08T22:11:00.000+08:00

o sheks. reminiscing is just not my thing? wakekekk. why do people show up bringing things that make you feel your the saddest THING in the world. grrr.. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay... di naman hamak na...... tsk tsk.. what are you suppose to do with a senseless thing? for crying out loud! waaaah.. binubuhos ko lahat ng "miss" stuffs and the angst sa thing na iun... how cheap!? waha. well, maybe she(no!) has this attitude that make men go wild!!!! MEN...how i LOVE to HATE them...well, sometimes... buti na lng na cure ako ng advise ni micah to go visit this site...http://www.peyups.com/article..... waaaaah.. nakakacure nga siya, if you ever got mad (?!?!) at SOMEBODY...just go on and read your madness away... and the thing is that if you ever felt the same way as the writer was, the more feelings of awe get left behind... sigh.... good thing is that yin and yang have their own powers to balance things off.... beyond all of these things, mad things, is the picture of my another beloved cat, Ron, chasing our big doggy dog, Grover. how ironic. wahahaha.. nakakatawa tlaga ung picture sa utak ko, hnde nga lng picture eh, real thing to! it's like the amazing race, animalized...kaso nga lng nakakatawa and it's so weird!!... late last night, hmm, mga 11.30. i was trying to get some sleep when suddenly some feline cat broke the silence of the night, sheks. I immediately ran out to see if Grover, our "power hungry dog" killed another innocent cat... *the next line consist of some grotesque presensory image* it was so weird...diba pag ang mga pusa, pag me kaaway tumataas ung mga balahibo nila or they think that other cats are frightened by the way they are so built-up and the innocent cats ran away. basta aun. Ron, did that manuever then Grover just stood, i thought ron just did that to make grover return to his sleep, but, oh no! the unexpected happened she ran after Grover, running as if she was one of the cheetahs on the national geographic channel....our "power hungry dog", Grover, ran away, as if he was the antelope running for his life on the NGC... and we thought he was the "powerful" one... kakatawa tlga.. kasi hinabol sia ni ron hanggang sa gate nmn.. parang ung ratio pa ng size nila mga 8:3, si grover 8, german pa nmn....naisip ko baka nga bakla to si grover...hmmm? basta sayang ala akong videocam... mananalo ako sa bitoy's..wakekek.. pramis... pag iisipin mo yun, kahit nalaman mo na may mahal na pala ang mahal mo na taong mejo hinde nmn kamahal-mahal, tatawa ka pa riN!!! yey!! ang saya.... wenk. hihi.... ngaun rin nga pala ung sportsfest!!! hehe... ang saya kahit talunan ang mega-curie!! haha... kakahiya magvolleyball...wakkekekk..laro nga ako ng laro eh... haha.. at least may effort!! yipee!! pero ang event of the year talaga ung kay rj eh...ahaha...wala lng. sama ko! change topic... kawawa rin ung avo/dar...grabeh kasi, the unmatchable powers of the edison students...waekekekkekk..kahit volleyball hinde nagpatawad! shaks... pero... i was so proud of KARLO JED PESTAÑO!!! wuhooo..MVP ng bayan! wakekekkk.. haha... pati si erpak! ang galing, walang kakupaskupas!! gooooooo PUSACALS!!!! hehe.... *flash report* why do people keep bugging me off!!! grrr... yak yak yak... haha.... bukas na lng ang details ng flash report....**** getting sleepy, need lots of feeding....so hungry.....argh!!!!!! wenk. :) nyt! and salamat!

let's do the TWIST.....

2005-04-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

whoaa... long time no type? haha... stressful days... stressful deeds... stressful....stressful... i lost for the 4th time!!! well... ok lng..!!!! life goes on! 2 sa taek..at 2 sa botohan.....in just 10 months... nice! traumatized na ata ako e....wahahaha.. joke lng. dami tlgang nangyari.... chubs, my chubby cat..wenk, is missing! namatay na tlaga... tekaaa, nasabi ko na ata toh eh.... oh well... balik tau dun sa "lost".... parang nakakahiya ung feeling na matalo sa harap ng maraming tao.....parang gusto mong ibahin ung pangalan mo?!?! haha... (eto nnmn, miss exaggeration) well...it's still a satisfying week dahil my ever lovely grandmader ay nagpunta for 7 days sa pangasinan!!!! yipeeee!!! vacation not only for her but for the whole bunch!!!! unfortunately, uuwi na siya bukas................................. haay... wat else wat else...tekaa....nwwalan ako ng forces.... baket kaya??! kasi me kulang eh.... haaaaaaaaaay... hayaan na nga natin.... HAYAAN!!! pero misss na misss ko na ung si................la... ung mga curians....hnde na kasi ako pumapasok.... and nothing's wrong with it!!!!!! NOTHING! ang papapel lng kasi si sir mark e.... enrichment classes to get your clearance.... ngarL!!! sarap niang isama sa buhay ng isang hamak na estudyanteng kisayista para maramdaman nia ang paghihirap namin na pumasok pa rin habang nakikita nmin ang mga estudyanteng iba ay nagbabakasyon na! sigh.... sana maisip ni sir un.... sana... kahapon ay nagsimula na ung CSI: NY!! haha.. ang kyut ni gary sinise....parang character pa rin nia talaga si lt. dan...haha! astig ung theme ng lab nila...parang gothic at lowtech not like those in miami and las vegas... pero nice team...more of drama nga lng pero okay pa rin...well, judging by their first episode p lng nmn eh... kelangang subaybayan.... anoder thing to watch out is the amazing race....and the america's next top meodel... na hinde ko pa napapanuod!!! haha... well...sha..babay na muna... nasa tv na si narda eh... hehe.. :)

your my wonderwall....... :D

mamayanaaa...

2005-03-27T02:08:00.000+08:00

wahahaha.. super kaduper nakakapagod!! ngayon ko lng naramdaman ang paghihirap na ganito... ang lakas pa ng pressure and ng expectations mo!!! sheks. well, look at the bright side, atleast nawawala sa isip ko ang mga very bad things that happen...the tragedies, of course...haay!!!! sana nmn matapos nmen ung gagawin sa mga susunod na araw!!! how i wish...tska sana ung ramayana mamayana, meaning sana mamove!!! i still have my fingers crossed...sana!!!! wakekekekekk...need more time!!!!! bat ba ganun lagi mga curian....cram "ever"... hmmmph! endless pag hihirap tlaga ang nangyayari sa kisay...naiinggit tuloy ako sa mga gragraduate na... haaaay.. pero nakakalungkot rin na mawawala na ang mga o5.... *moment of silence*.... wakokokkk.. anu bng ginawa ko ngaung holy week....puros praktis lng ata e....ay, nag visita iglesia(?!?!) pala kami.. buti namn, kahit papano....salamat po God!!! sana maayos po nmen ang lahat!!! salamat pa rin po ng napakarami!!!! :) sigh muli... wat else... ah yes!! im still shocked on what had happened, nagmukha nnmn akong tanga...forever na ata un eh....well, well, do i have to accept that?!?!?!?!? should you answer that?? shempre hnde.... naku...anlabo! huwaw.. ang tanga!!!! waahah!! buti na lng nan jan si ..................... chubs? wakekekk.. watever. miss ko na mga pusacals!!!! sana makita ko kayo at makasama next week!!!! hehe... miss ko na rin ung mga kaklase kong napaka sipag magpraktis!! love you...yihah! haha!!!! nako, mahal na mahal ko nga pala si surpanaka!! tska si ravana! VICTORY TO RAVANA!!!! ang baet ko tlagang alipores..?!!?! wahahaha... ang YAMAAAAAN tlga ni jepoy!! dun kami ng praktis kanina... grabesh. bago maglunch siguro mga 10, nagsnack kami....and then...mega lunch nnmn kami nung mga 1...den mga 4.30 megamerienda nmn!!! akala mo binyag! sheks.... salamat nga rin pala jepoy! ang rich kid ng bayan....:] on the bright side nakalibre ako sa pera!! nakatipid pala..... pero ito nmng si chito palibre ng libre sa pamasahe!!! ngeks... pero ok lng... hehe... :) excited na akong gumawa ulet ng props....wahahaha!!! stooop meee!!!! nyak. sana masaya nnmn ang buhay bukas... hnde kaya nakakasawa noh.. bat lagi na lng ang mga tao nakasana...??? hmm... sana masagot ko un... ngek. :

.....naalala kita pagumuulan...naalala kita pagginiginaw...naalala kita pagkakain na....ilang bukas pa ba......???

bago tayo ay magkita?????...............
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sana'y magkita bago makalaya???? :(

wewewaaait.............again...:)

2005-03-22T22:55:00.000+08:00

muntik ko ng makalimut...or nasabi ko na ata toh dati e.... being a scorpio marami akong mood swings..ang arte tuloy ng dating..hehehe... kaya sa mga tao patawad n lng kung mejo mabilis magconflict ang aking moods. pagpasenxahan nio na ako!!! hihihiihh... this is an online diary kaya...ok lng nmn cgurong maging sarili mo... :D

thank you na rin at the same time!!! yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! wahahaw..

TEKAAA!!!!!

2005-03-22T22:31:00.000+08:00

ang epal...bwicet...bat biglang naging nobody nnmn ako...buti na lng kaklase ko pa rin si toyang...wakekekek.. ang bobo bobobo!!!! mamatay na ang lahat ng kamukha ni *censored*.. (ang samaa...pero nararapat...tama lng!) wala nmng mangyayaring mabuti sa kanila kung mabubuhay pa cla...mwahahaha*dushta??!* waaah!! "if i just scream very very hard, everything will be alright!!!" yeah!!! wahahaha!!! napaka non-sense nnmn tuloy... lalo na ako..kasi nasa state nnmn ng confusion ang utak kong mahina at alipin ng kaba...i hate it!!aaay.. kelangan kong magsummer "sports" lesson to keep my mind off some very badthings, especially the current "bad" news that put the start to a shockwave in my tiny little planet....haaay.. e pag nag taekwondo pa rin ako...it'll bring back super bad moments/memories... haaaaay.. kumukulo tuloy dugo ko ngaun...hahahaa..nakakabanas kasi, dahil lng sa iisang tao, biglang naging ayaw ko na sa first love ko..ang taek..ngaun nmn, gusto ko magswimming... para masaya...masaya tlaaga... haha... well, back on the bobo things, minamalas nnmn ata ako e..parang ang ganda n nga ng karma tapos shaks..another breakthrough...sigh... what would a poor toddler do? (nyay) .....................for the last time, i ask you, oh Divine one, am i really doomed?? is this really the way to my life or did i miss a turn??

need sign. need answers. need feeding. need no more waiting. need these needs. got needs?

light at the end of the tunnel???

2005-03-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

sa wakas!! nagbati na kami ni erpak!!! yipeee! hehe.. akala ko hanggang next skul year toh e..nakow!! pero salamat sa DiyoS! tenk you tenk you!! i am starting to think that i was cursed all throughout this year pero meron tlagang pagasa...pero ang ramayana nmin parang wala ng pag-asa!! shaks.. i hope i'm just saying this..kung hnde, i am still doomed, pretty much. well well well...atleast there's still the great queen of ideas, MISS SIGRID...oh thank God! ang galing galing...pero napaka(super kaduper) time pressured kasi! bakit kelangang nalate kami magisip na maghire....haay...well, me purpose nmn siguro un... sana. whak. at another light is.....*drum roll* magaling na si chubs...siguro, well, i think so... hehe.. so happy.. :) the world is spinning again... yipee! hiihihi.. wat else.... wala naaa... malungkot nnmn ang buhay.... nothing's happening...napakaplain...i can't sense a feeling of excitement, even a feeling of intimidation... no, nothing!!! haaay. i just really hope(again) that i could really catch a glimpse of him...just for a second, whether far or soon... nyak. it's so melodramatic...wakkokokokk... sigh... pero biglang naging vice versa lahat nian!!!dahil sa isang jeepney ride na hnde ko makakalimutan ngayong week...............................hehe.. naku, grabeh talaga! akala ko tlaga na si toyang na ung sumakay sa jeep!!! damang-dama ko na talaga na....*why do stars fall down from the sky...* then, sablay!!! hnde pala... pero lahat ng facial features niya pa rng ayun eh.... ang sayasaya talaga..ang kyut pa kasi parehas silang kulot!!!! hehehe... :D when you least expect it, then then it turns out.."it"...yeah. haha. waaaaah!! ang galing!!! ang saya! namove rin ako kahit papano dahil dun ah...haaay!hansaya! it put a temporary smile on my face! yey! snaps for retchu!! wakokokkk... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...pero andami kong namimisss! dami talaga.... lalong lalo na si....si.....shhhhhhhshhh.. TTFN!!! babay muna?! me praktis ulet bukas e 7-7...huwaw! how nice! :) bye!

mega frustration week...

2005-03-20T18:52:00.000+08:00

betcha by golly wah! this week is just so kaduper mind-irritating/boggling... then every effort has a equal frustration... shock. im so filled with the dangerous disease, FRUSTRATION! after frustration here comes his trusty side kick.......PARANOIA!!!! *paranoia...paranoia....PARANOIA under the rescue!!!!* shaks. it's just like carrying the whole wide world on your shoulder plus holding a darn paralyzed cat on the other hand...PLUS nerve-beating exams blocking your way.. ngargh!!!! sigh. still.. i really managed myself again. surviving myself, i mean. i tend to cry due to high-quality frustration. mother of grover! shaks. shaks. shaks. but i really have to tell you "the story" of the week. CHUBS the ever-so-cute cat of ours was, shockingly, paralyze! i cried my heart out thinking that he'll die........huhuhuu.. the story goes like this, it was just a plain, ordinary tuesday night...(or wednesday)..i was studying/cramming in botany when all of a sudden..my loving grandmother screamed:"BOOOOOORET!!! pusa ba natin toh?!?! namatay!". i was dumb-struck. i ran out of the room then check if the cat was truly ours........yes, the moment has come....chubs' moment has come....moment of silence came.... the scene was just horrible! yes, HORRIBLE!! chubs' neck was like harry potter's arm after prof. lockheart "magically" made it boneless. then my physical therapist/sister arrived and aided chubs. we decided to let chubs stay in our room for the night.. i couldn't sleep that night, chubs was just so helpless..he kept on standing with hands paralyzed and in trying he falls, head first. argh! then after feeding(milk, sabaw ng sinigang, then tahong na me sabaw with rice, then so on) him for 3 days using spoon(!!) he now can eat and stand all by himself..but he's still wobblying while walking. it's a very good sign, because he is improving!! that's the bright side of this week.. but until now we still haven't figured out why chubs almost died..our first conclusion is that grover, the power-hungry dog, did it or my LOVINGLY grandma did it...hmmmm....?? anyways,, the exams was so so so hard. maybe i'm just plain stupid or our teachers doesn't know the word easy...i prefer the later part. ooopsie-daisies!!!..kakain na pala.. see yah lataH! vavavoom...huh?

ang araw ng danglings

2005-03-09T19:48:00.000+08:00

pag gising sa umaga:
aun una kong naisip badluk ba ako bukas??? hmm...
ang sagot ay................malamang .... oo..
wahahaha...pero hnde katulad ng nangyari ng isang araw.....the day of the mosts...
well well.........lam nio ba kung kelan pede na akong mawala sa kisay?? ha??
sa friday!!!
ayaw ko kasing magdisect!!!! sobraaa. ayaw ko tlaga!!!!!!!!!!!waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...
more details na nga lng sa next few hours...me super mega...irritating test nnmn sa bio e.. argh!
BIO BIO BIO BIO BIO BIO BIO!!!!!!!!!
hmphhhh... waaaaaaa.... circulatory at immune system... ay naku..

no shares today..:
eto na lng....
song for the day:
semi charmed kind of life - 3rd eyeblind...

numbered away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bad bad bad badzz...

2005-03-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! sad bad sad bad triiiip!!!! sori talaga!! sori talaga ERPAK!!!! nakow... naguluhan talaga ako ke meng kanina...na frustrate ako na ewan....tapos nakalimut ko at hnde kita maxado napansin kanina...hnde ko tlaga sinasadya....waaaaah! sori.... kasi nmn eh.... waaaaaaaaah.. sori talaga.. tapos aun...nagalit ka na!!! sana wag ka na magalit!! waaahuhuhu.. sori sa lahat!!! di ko uulitin!! pramis! mamatay man si toyang ngaun mamatay man ako ngaun... shaks.. sori talaga... ayaw ko ng me nagagalit pa sa akin...at hnde ko nakakaintindihan... waaah... sori na taalaga... bilhan na lng kita ulet next tym... erpak sori talga!! pramis... naluluha na ako... dami ng me galit sa kin....sige na erpak bati na tau!!! huhuhu....:

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naku talaga.. napaka mali ng araw na toh!! lalong lalo na nung nagalit pa si erpak!!! waaaah.. ang mga kaibigan ko...anu ba nmn... this is karma... and i knew it! sabagay...kasalanan ko nmn...kasi naging malupit rin ako sa isa ko pang kaibigan kea siguro ganito ang nangyari.... nag back fire lng sa kin.... pero... the last thing i really need is to have a new enemy....nakoww... ayoko! magsusummer na eh!!! wag nmn po sana... ayaw ko mawala ang frendships ko over some silly mistakes of mine... waaah... sorry talaga mga kaibigan!!! hnde ko sinasadya... i'll really really try to be more patient..present minded..obligated..responsible..and all the good stuffs... nireregret ko taalaga... sori.... waaaah... dis is just all wrong!! mali mali! tapos nahulog pa ung large drink ko sa mcdo kanina!!! waaaaah.. i am cursed. i am doomed for all eternity!!!! waaah... hnde nmn! joke lng... cursed lng talaga ako...kasi maxado akong naging masama ngaung week... especially ng mga ibang araw... shaks.. its called karma. the good karma is not siding with me these days.. and i hope that it wouldn't last long... sana matapos na ang lahat by tommorow.. another bad thing that happened is that... NAWAWALA ANG FORM 137 ko!!!! panu ako gragraduate!!??! shaks!! i need that.... waaaaaaaah.. shakers!!! anu ba nmn talaga... another bad thing is ung grades ko ay slowly slipping out of my grasps.. wala na.. i am really doomed... kelan ba babalik ang lucky happy over whelming days ko!!waaaaaaaah.. kelan kelan?!?! haay... sana magpakita ka na!! sana talaaga.. ikaw lng ang ssagot sa mga cursed days ko...ikaw lng ang aking liwanag sa dilim!!! haay...
shaks.... SORI NA TALAGA!!! ayaw ko ng ganitoo.. kung mukhang wala akong pakielamm ..dun ako lalo me pakielam... i show no emotions for big happenings... i'm too ironic with those things... shaks.. pero deep deep deep down...i swear to the Lord Almighty... i really care and i dont want anything wrong happening...because it's just not fair... like domeng... :) waaah...

SOORRY SA LAHAT!!! FOR BEING A STUPID ME....................:

rain...rain....go away??

2005-03-08T13:20:00.000+08:00

haaaaaaay....i am so happy this evening!! kasi nmn naayus ko na rin ang kalagayan ng blog ko!! i love you blog!! hehe... wahahha...
yet..
every happiness has a counter part of sadness....yes...we all have to admit that it's true...right? so here comes the bitter part of my story for the day........:

as the first week of february come and go...i am...still, on an endless road..which, of course.. i was travelling all by myself due to the tragic ACCIDENT that recently occured that week...you all know about that right? wahahaa...what da heck! forget about that... ok ok... back to the story... then on when flick of somebody's wand... i saw the most beautiful thing that happened to my life...yess...the most.. well, the most this year..(meaning at this time) i never ever actually caught sight with that beauty until that moment... for all this months.. maybe i was very busy wasting my time those months... -----wait a second cut this crap..tatagalogin ko na....ayun nga....nakita ko ang hndeng hnde ko pa nakikita matagal na panahon na... shaks..ang gwapo pa la ng ULAN!!!!!! as in....hnde nga lng gwapo e....ang ganda pa at lamig ng boses!.... (pero ala pa rin nakakatalo ke brandon boyd hehe) haaay...aun....i realize na parang parehas pala cla ni toyang..kaso nga lng...bolero c toyang e...tapos funny thing is...ang baet pala ng ulan!! kala ko snob lng tuda max un pala'y mahilig rin itong magpapansin...hehe....then.. nagtapos ang february...then...nothing...i just felt that way..nothing happened...and now...after its yearly aging...i saw that its signal no. was getting higher on the other side of the world.... he was fading away...the rain was going away...
maybe... i still dont know the answer...well i really really really hope that that rain never stops pouring over me... i dont want anything else... i want the signal to turn to its highest level only where i'd like it to be... and i'd really really like the rain...to stop at me...and keep me drowning till the day i finally...became a river... a river that will flow endlessly toward the corners of the world..and of course a river that would never end to evaporate to the ravishing face of the rain.......

yes....well..most of my story is not yet given here... i actually encoded some things there...well.. if you are clever you could...decode it....if you have the cleverness...??? of the one...the only.... rachelle sarmiento aka... the one.... nyak... sheks.. sorry, i was on hang over with all the matrix: i am the one stuff.... never mind...the lost little girl inside me... hehe... another grudge in me this day is that.... i hate the OVER ALL IN CHARGE... no..hate is a harsh word...maybe...i like to say something really bad at her face right now... ayun. my golly ghad! she is very close minded and most of all..doesnt admit to her self that she made an obvious mistake...argh!!! Karma is about bad effects in life....and i react with your report because karma only includes BAD karma....oh shut up! and i thought i am not educated well enough?!?! wada?! haaay.. bahala ka nga... may libro jan...diksyunaryo.. basahin mo.... (haha..ang taray ko...) badbadbad!

isa pang bagay na gustong gusto ko ay ang save the last dance!!! wahahaha.. 9:19 na kasi ng gabi e..kea its the francis time.... haha... ang kyut ni sandy..kaso hnde maxado gwapo si francis...pero mejo hawig nia ung nasa sassy girl pag nakamukhang tanga... hehehe....

before i go.... i would like to dedicate these songs:
i miss you - incubus...... yes... to toyang.
nerbyoso - rivermaya... well of course... i need courage!
you dont know me - ray....duh?! stupid old hag! still you dont!

the poem of the day: (well this poem, ay ginawa ko na nung friday pa hehe)
kala ko ba ay
hinde na aaraw muli
akala ko ay
malulunod ako habang ika'y ngumingiti
diba sabi ko'y
ikaw ang bagyong
hinding hinde hihina
pero bat ngaun'y nagmamadali
ewan ko hinde ko alam
kung bakit naging ganyan
ang aking naging pangako
ay biglang na lng naglaho
haay..nagkamali ba si ernie
o sadyang ganito ang sabi
ng aking tadhanang hindi mapakali.....
-__-

wahuhuhuhuhuhu.......

2005-02-18T20:08:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaaaw... its been a while since i blogged in... hehe... haai.. ang panget pa rin ng blog ko... wala kc akong time lagi!!!! andaming PROJECTS... at dahil sa mga bwicet bwicet na projects na yan...sumablay ang lahat!!!! at higit sa lahat... ang aking new and napakacharming na fone...wakkekekekekk... ang sama sama ng mga nenokerssss!! they should all DIE!!! DIE STUPID BASTARDS.. LOW LIFE PUNKS?! STUPID PARASITES!! UGLY BALD PIPOL!!! haaaay... wala na ako magagawa... if they are all stupid..den i am one of them, ngahahhaa... eh kc nmn, pinabaayaaan ko lng mawala ang lahat...... huhuhuu.... waaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! gusto ko sapakin ang pc na ito....pero on second thought....hmmm..wag na lng... wawa nmn ako kung ganun...:)
for my labyduvs(fone).... i dedicate this song:

*MUSICAL*
dont it always seem to go...
but you dont know what you got til its gone....
they paved paradise and put in a parking lot....
oooo parapapap... shubirobabab??

haaaay... well... atleast i got over it...pero ang tatay ko kaya?? hehe.... well then... to be continued...........................................;P next topic tau...
ngaung week...shempre badtrriiiiip weeekk... kc una sa lahat valentine's day eh...as my cousin said...: it should be "happy SINGLE-BLESSED AWARENESS day!!" yeah!!! go ate mae! its the perfect theme for this year's valentines...:) as usual i spend the day ALL BY MYSELF.... and im greatful....kaso nga lng ala akong bouquet na natanggap...uhhuuhuhuhu... joke!!! pero ang baet nila jed!!! binigyan nila kami ng flowers!!!! salamat salamat!!! :) haaaaaaaaaaay.... anu pa bng meron.... well, mejo frustrated din ako.. at mejo nagfefeeling ngaung mga araw... kc nmn... hnde ko lam kung anu tlga ang meron about things around me especially, the PIPOL.... im not sure!!!!! huhuu...
haaay...oh well... at least na broke na ung oath ko sa aking sarili na c toyang lng ang aking magiging MP for the end of the world... dahil....... "stardusts, confetties, flowers...stuffs, fell down on alipin's head" then... POOF! haaaay... im so glad.... i have broken the oath... wahahaha... im so happy!!! hehe... wahaha.. pero ang bad.. kc oath ko sa sarili ko un den...it became coco crunch.. :( pero... on the other hand...ang saya... kc feeling ko reincarnation siya ni toyang!! parehas silang...1st of all: matangkad... yes, of course! mawawala ba sa listhan ko yan??!?! haha... den came the 2nd na: mejo kayumanggi.. i really dont know why?! hmmm... instincts? next is: mejo torpeeeeeedo!!!!! yeah... ang sama nga eh, pero ang kyut tignan... parang ganun... kaso nga lng me mga hnde pa xa nafifill na check mark sa aking list... wala dun ung....: literate? hehe sabi nga sa english kanina... Reading makes a full man... olryt! that's true! very... pero hnde ko kc alam... hnde ko xa closeness!! hahahaha... pero naaliw ako sa knya kc he believes at health magazines and, i think, he is a mama's boy ayun... at mejo mature xa (mature nga ba un, eh ang kulet...) kc parang andami niang hirap na pinagdaanan sa buhay... aun... pero nakakaaasar ang tamad... just like any ordinary men.. : pero he is special.. ang labo ko!!?!!??!! watever...(tono ng boses ni denise) haaai... kahit na cguro hnde xa ganun sa kin... okay lng...bastat me malaman pa ako sa kanya...hehe...pero, bat nmn c toyang hnde nmn sya seryoso pero nag stand out sha..kc ang galing nia kc mag pagkabolero at dahil dun i keep begging for more... alam nio un... minsan naiisip ko na....why do guys keep on making girls hope for more?? even though he knows na hnde nia gusto ung girl at di nia type ung gurl pero ung gurl nmn baliw sa knya he still text her for a sympathetic reasons.... baket ba kelangan nilang magsend ng kowts na nakakaheart warming at nakakasaya ng buong araw mo...(knowing na me kras sila sau)...PERO me MAHAL ung guy na iba...? get it? parang nagpapaasa lng sila...aun tuloy ung mga babaeng nagkakras sa kanya ay nakahang sa isang napaka thin line dahil hnde nila alam na nagpapaasa lng ung guy... dat was me wen toyang acted like that.... ako ung babaeng nakahwak sa line.. pero as time past by and as i grow more mature..na realize ko na wla nmng interes tong lalakeng to sa kin... siguro tinext lng nia ako ng ganun para hnde nmn daw ako magmukhang tanga... haaaaaaaay... ang lungkot nun... nachange tuloy ung topic... pero sana me nagawa akong point...hehe... c toyang kc mejo bolero at asasero.... sana nmn c alipin hnde ganun.. sana torpedo lng talaga sha at sana... sana makilala ko pa xa lalo.. ung kras nia...para hnde ako magmukhang tanga.. at sana maging showy rin sha noh! hahahahahha... thank God... for a new chance sana...
hnde ako malasin...

well i should summarize dis....
This week:
- i got nenoked... huhuhu very sadly..
- i got very sad and lonely...well, becoz of the single-blessed awareness day...
- i got very very crammed up....sadly it led to very stupifying endings...:(
- i got a new GP!!! hehe... not exactly... pero ok na rin.. aprob for the health of my heart..
- im still dazed and confused on what happend with toyang lastlast century...
- still i am confuse for my new GP...
- still finding help and answers from him, and the new him....
- can't answer: MALAS BA AKO???
- lastly...im very sad in my mind yet happy in my blood-pumping muscle....:D

see yah tommorow....
kudos...
gudnyt....-..-.....--...-.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy and stupid...

2005-02-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

to start of this week's happening... im going to take you back into some what kind of (some what na kind of pa) flashback....-------- The day as usual is plain, ordinary and very simple i must say.. except for the fact that i trained again since last last century..... well, "the training" went "perfectly well" if HIM wasnt around.... nyarrrr... naah.. nagbibiro lng ako... well, it IS ok if he is around pero parang napaka-awkardo.. aun..ganun.
haaaai.... ang happy pa rin... pero ang stupid...un lng po....:))

muntik na patibong

2005-01-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

haaaai... ang saya ko na..
dahil salamat sa iyo.. at naisip ko ulet.. na hnde ako nararapat sa isang taong tulad mong makulet.
muntik na akong mahulog ulet, pero...
nung biglang nagkaganunan ang aura...
at nailabas na ang lahat ng dating pagsuyo...
nagkaliwanag sa bahay ng dilim at nakabasa na akong muli,,,
na ang buhay ay sadyang ganyan...
"me darating, me paalis, me aalis at me hndeng hnde na babalik"...
at ang ugali mo ay paalis na..

at sana'y wag magpakatanga muli ang puso kong sawi..
at wag hayaang makapasok ulit ang pagibig kong pilit...
wag na wag... kasi.... hnde ito rekomendado...
sa mga batang tulad ko..
at tyak na ikalulumbay ito ng aking masayang buhay [ako'y nakamaskara ngaun]..

sabagay tama nmn ang aking nasagut... "hnde na tulad ng dati..."
tama... tamang tama...
pero ang dahilan na inaakala mo:
"ako ba'y naglaho sa dilim at pinilitan ng lalaking mejo maitim??.."
ay hnde 'maxado'...
ang tunay na dahilan sa aking pagtaksil sa ilaw ay
ang katotohanan na 'missile ka sa tubig' na hnde alam ang target...
walang komandong ibinigay sau
kea't parang ikaw ay di sigurado..

hanggang ngaun kahit na ako'y napipilitan...
ikaw ay agad kong papalitan...
kahit na mahirapan..
kahit muling masaktan...
basta't ika'y maglaho't makalimutan...
kahit na wala ka nmng ginawang kasamaan...

inuulit ko ulet ang aking sagot ay malabo...
at baka magfeeling ka nnmn muli at umaasa ng patago...
ang sagot ko tlaga sa una'y... oo...
pero hnde ako komportable sa sagot na binigay sau..
sa pangalawa'y... baka meron pa
pero dahil sa iyong katangahan..pagiging missile at ka hinaan...
at ang sabi mong lalaking me kayumanggian...
ang sagot ko sayo'y "nabawasan lamang.."
pero ayun ay sa paniginip mo lang..
ang totoo'y ito ay matagal ng paalis na lumatang...

pasenxa na at malabo ang pagliliwanag ko sa dati't ngaun...
basta't ako'y mejo napahinahon..
sa muntik na pagibig na labis na patibong...

confucius...

2005-01-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

its been a week since i blogged out... haaai... ang lungkot talaga na parang masaya... or maybe
maskara ko lng ung pagiging masaya ko...

'for every event that occurs, there will follow another event whose existence was caused by the first, and this second event will be pleasant or unpleasant according as its cause was skillful or unskillful.'

at this moment...i truly believe in this teaching...gud or bad...its still karmaa... waaaaah..
haaaai..teka naisiip ko lng...baket ba ganun ang mga tao..laging na sa huli ang pagsisisi... oo nga, bago tau nagsasalita iniisip natin ang sasabihin natin...pero...pag dating na ng point kung iisipin mo na kung anu nasabi mo...maiisip mo na...shemaks.. ang tanga ko.. hnde ko NAISIP na ganun pala... ang epekto...ang tanga..dba parang nagisip ka pa kung anu sasabihin mo kung ireregret mo rin... ako lagi akong ganun...bat ba...hnde ko namamalayan?? me birth defect ba ako sa utak?? parang ang kapalit talaga ay isang masamang karma pag ganung hnde mo nga naisip ang mga dapat mong naisabi ng matino... nagetgets ko ba sarili ko?? waah.. andaming nangyaring napaka lungkot na pede na ata ikamatay ng isang nilalang ngaung buong january ko..

i need to get back on my feet... now.

today's song: for the 500th time...
NERBYOSO....
ng rivermaya...

ilang gabi na akong nagdaramdam...
kasi mahal kita hnde mo pa alam!!!!!

2005-01-23T17:45:00.000+08:00

haaaai.. i m so happy... i finally found a nice template to use..wahaha. ok na ok para sa kin.. kc fake a lie.. nice.

what about today?
nothing much..
pero while listening to the soothing sounds of alicia keys..
nalaman ko na....MAS malamang pa rin tlaga ang mga babae kesa sa mga lalake....

tekaaa.. nababanas ako!!! daming longtest ata proyekto!!! hnde ko tuloy ma enjoy ang pagkakaroon ko na ng sariling blog... hihihi... :) haaai...
siiige siiige...

habang

2005-01-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. nakakaasar. hnde ko pa magawan o mahanapan ng bagong templato ang aking blogger.. wahai.. habang naghahanap ako... mabuti na ring magpost ako para hnde sayang ang aking mahal na blog..*uboubo*

haaai...
grabeh! ako'y nagkasakit at nabinat ako lalo nung nanuod kami ng "SiS" at naghalamanhalaman kami sa bio.. o may! haha.. nagabsent tuloy ako nung friday... nooo.. i hate to be absent.. kasi halos buong second year ko ata sa isang linggo me absent e.. waha.. hnde nmn.. parng ganun lng naiisip ko..

badtriip na sadtriip pa! anu ba yan.. hnde ko na lam kung anu mangyayari... un lng. :(

wooops. oooops!

2005-01-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

tekaaa lng. wag muna kau maglink.. nakakaban-ban ang aking blog... huhuhuu.. :)

da blog.

2005-01-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha.... ang bobo....